My life recently has been very confused, I hate to say it that way but that is the way that it is. I can remember back to quite a while ago when I decided I really wanted to do video editing, and I was really starting to get good at it for a bit there, but then some crazy new things started to happen in my life. Amongst these were getting my car and license, oh lord I cannot begin to describe how over-joyed I was that day - freedom to go to and fro as I please, see who I want when I want and do what I want when I want. This paired with an overbearing school+work schedule left the old parts of my life in tatters. I.E My counter strike source clan, 28 Rounds Later was left in the dust by my sexy, puke blue 94 Dodge Colt, and I couldn't help but feel bad about it. As a message to those guys from 28RL who are reading this (Dot, Gucci?) I want to come back, I do, I just have strange priorities right now, haha. With that I also lost contact with some of my old friends, who I spoke with all the time on the bus and in turn hung out with them in school, not once over the last 2 months have I spoken to Jeffrey, well, there was that one time that his cheap mother came in with him to get the cheapest laptop available, with no geek services or service plans (poor mistake, for you bought a netbook that WILL break, lol). But in any case, I left a lot of loose ends behind in my old life, just little things that I really wish that I was able to tie in with my new lifestyle.
Now I am able to see photography as one of those things that is changing in my life, like my car. The other day, GIBB5 asks me if I want to go take some pics, I had never used my camera for the last 2 years and accepted (a chance to go drive around in my car? Hell yeah!). Well now I notice that I have been spending a lot of time with him lately so I invite my girlfriend along so that I can kind of hit 3 birds with one stone, so to speak. And it worked out well, yielding 2 cool photos IMHO and my #2 pic in my album "Sharing" IMO. Now the night after GIBB5 comes over to watch a movie he has found and we see on facebook some time into the movie "IT SNOWED, FINALLY" and we can't help but think, YEAH RIGHT?, and sure as heck, it snowed. So of course, my new found lust for photography I grab my camera and head out to take some pics, yielding but more really cool shots in my opinion. All in all, I am HOOKED on photography, every waking moment I cannot wait to get out and take some new photos, concepts racing through my mind, the desire to go chase new scenes and find new inspiration - begging the internet for feedback and opinions, searching for poetry to inspire my work and asking friends to show me their stuff to get some ideas. Scowering the internet and daily deviations as a kicker to get me out there taking more pics.
I am very happy with this little addiction to photography, as it were, the only problem is, is it really what I want? When I take into account - Car, School, Work, Girlfriend, Battlefield 3, and now Photography - I have left behind so many loose ends, 28RL, Video editing, youtubing, Daily Boothing, Rubiks Cubing, No Lifeing and All Nighting. All things that I enjoyed - spending my evenings online chilling with Nadia! and facE, maybe Dot. would pop in or I would get a chance to talk to StormStriker. I would post new things on the forum to spark up interest for the members to be more clan active like my Crackhouse Achievements System, or my Edit Shoppe. On top of this, hardcore gaming, nightly skype chats with GIBB5, taking the bus with Jeffrey, actually having a weekend to myself, and even being confined to my house instead of having the freedom of a car. I lose a lot of greatness in my life, and for what? Is this new life what I really want, is it really what I want to lead?
This is what I am struggling with now - As you can tell I have a serious 1st world problem here.
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